Today was a god day, with an exchange of messages from a friend about school scheduling, and talks of going back in the fall, I feel like I am already getting refocused. I am only a handful of credit short of my associates, and I could not be more proud of myself. For this woman, it is an accomplishment I was told I could never achieve.
In a couple of more years, I will be even more astonished at the challenge ill accept in the Bachelors program, and then on to certificates, and specialties and then eventually a masters in the desired field of destination. I am so proud that God had a better plan for me then my family had. I am not doomed to be a failure, I just simply refuse. I will show my girls that I loved them enough to never give up on my dreams, that I will never settle for less than I am capable up. I will never quit, not growing is not an option. I will show them that no matter comes at you in your life, you never have to throw up the white flag and surrender, unless it promotes spiritual growth. And that would require for God to have another plan for you, and if so, He will let you know what is meant to be.
The other week I walked through some serious fear and really exposed myself by asking for the chance to advance my training in the field I more desire on a unit that I am not “qualified for my degree”, I took a risk, and rumor has it, that it just might materialize for me. I will not get my hopes up, but to know that I was even considered, is a bonus to know. I am valuable, I am worthy and I am an asset to others. One of these days I will not only know it because others think so, I will know it because I will think so. Everything happens for a reason, I am ok with either result, stay in the position I am or move on. I am confident that God has a plan for me, He has not abandoned me yet and has brought this far. He will not leave me now when I am dying to do His work. I am so grateful, and I would love to hop back on here soon and tell you I have great news very soon, but again, just the fact that I was considered is a reason alone to be grateful.