Today is another day, as was yesterday. A day without vision or difference. It was Tuesday, I went to visit a friend whom I haven’t spent much one-on-one time with in quite a while. I was there all day, I thoroughly enjoyed myself. In fact I don’t think I thought of Him much at all. After leaving there I went home to pick up my youngest at school. And again, I was just feeling grateful for what I have. Upon arriving home we did our afternoon routine and I took her to her friends house and returned home. My trees were going in the ground, I was pretty happy about that. Earlier in the day they had to jack hammer a huge boulder under the ground in order to place the tree where I had requested, that was nice considering that they could’ve probably moved over 2-3 ft. and spared themselves a chunk of work, (no pun intended). Still my mind was clear.
Once I got home and my friend got home, we decided to order out, we ate and left to go do other things. Girlies errands I suppose. We went shopping and got lots of fruit. We actually had a great time cracking ourselves up. We grabbed a red box movie and made our way home. Still my mind was clear, of him at least.
Today, the stillness has returned, I am home alone and trapped in my head. All I want to do is go back to sleep. He’s on my mind, and I don’t want him there. I have so much to take care of today and my final is tonight, I am hoping that Ill get a chance to study with a clear head. Lord hear my prayers. Theres a little bit of angst hindering me, please subside it and soothe me for now, just though until tonight. But on the same note, I feel like even I know its wrong, Id like to hear that voice again.