Love this, I understand it so completely
This is very much how i feel when it comes to relationships with other people. i feel very much locked in, not understanding relationships but desperately wanting to.
there are so many views and opinions from others of us that i get lost in it all and end up feeling invisible but more than anything, i am scared
it doesn’t matter what nice things anyone else does for us, someone else inside always finds a way to turn it around so that it becomes something bad or that there is bad meaning behind it.
what is it like to have meaningful relationships with people ? whats it like to talk to people without hearing the voices that make everything bad ?
i feel like i’m on the search for the impossible but it shouldn’t really be that hard should it ?